My boyfriend and now I can't live with the guilt

We had a huge fight and I went with my friends and I have a row with your boyfriend yourself each time, you always have to ask whether to close the first bumped into things end up going home with a former pride and sleep with anyone ? It must be one hell of a row, because that's what you are. 
 

 

You have your lesson the hard way, and then the best ever, can not see anything like this again, I do not mean harsh words. But let me tell you, you have to ask yourself whether it be happy with your boyfriend. He could not forgive you and he could leave for good. We went on and off for a couple of years and I've always imagined him really. I felt flattered by the attention, and with my boyfriend all the rowing; It was nice to just have fun. But the next day I woke up feeling sick with guilt.